Tuesday, February 28, 2006

I Want To Be Normal

So I have a cavity.
I have had a cavity for quite some time now.
I had an appointment to get said cavity fixed and I cancelled it.
I have not been to the dentist since.
Now, since I have had some extreme tooth problems in my day it has been weighing on my mind to make the appointment before it starts hurting.
So I call today and make the appointment (big step for Jesi) The lady says, "I see here you cancelled an appointment back in 2004, is that what this is for?"

2004? Really? Am I THAT pathetic??

Why yes I am!

I have been thinking about making this appointment on and off for over a year now. Every bit of me knows that it won't hurt. The last one didn't hurt. The root canal didn't hurt. Nothing hurt, just the needle, and I can handle the needle. Does that convince me?

HECK NO! I start to hyper-ventilate just THINKING about making the dentist appointment!! JUST THINKING ABOUT IT!!

No kidding. I am freaked out right now! It took me a month and a half of constant thinking about it and minor freak outs just to call and make the appointment!!

What is wrong with me? Why am I thrown into fits at the thought of the dentist? I just want to be normal! I want to think, oh, its time to go to the dentist without my heart racing and my breathing becoming shallow. Is that too much to ask?

The last time I went to the dentist my husband came and held my hand because I just couldn't stop freaking out.

The time before that my sister came and held my hand and I was crying the whole time.

How pathetic is that?
Is it more or less pathetic than the fact that when I made the appointment for 4pm my first thought was "I wonder if Al can get off early and come with me"

Yes, yes I did.

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Health Care

So the other day I'm listening to the news and there is some interview, with some guy, stating that Ralph Klein was sneaky and hid his agenda to privatized health care. The guy claimed that Ralph hid his intentions until after he was re-elected and is now campaigning for privatization of healthcare.
Now, I have lived in Alberta for 3 years, and I don't really follow politics at all. I actually am quite ignorant about who stands for what and why. The one thing I do know, and have known since I moved here, was that Ralph Klein is going for private healthcare. I'm not sure what rock this guy climbed out of, but buddy, there was no sneakiness, no secret, you just weren't paying attention.
Now, being a bit politically ignorant I don't really know how private health care would even affect me. What I do know is that people are against it. It sounds bad, it sounds like I would have to pay an atrocious amount of money to get services that right now cost me.... Oh wait, an atrocious amount of money!
I was looking through my bills today and we owe Alberta Healthcare $132.00 Each. That is $264.00 for 3 months of being able to go to the doctor. Then we pay $190.00/month for my extended medical, and $150.00/month for my husbands. Totaled up we are paying $428.00 a month for health benefits we may, or may not need! This is freaking me out! I mean really, how much more can private health care cost??
Oh and I'm sure it could cost more, but that isn't my point here. My point is I feel like I'm paying through the nose for crappy health care! I pay over $400 a month to have my doctor tell me that they can only discuss one problem because they have other patients waiting. What if I'm dying of some horrible illness that can only be detected if you take two symptoms into consideration at the same time???? Doesn't my money cover that? Nope, sorry NEXT!

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Animals Abound

On my way to work today I was struck by what an amazing part of the country I live in.
Sure maybe GP isn't the prettiest city, with its industrial park feel and diesel smell.
But where else can I drive to work and pass a pack of coyotes, 7 in all, running around?
Or a herd of deer, at least 10, eating their breakfast?
Or a Momma moose and her two babies, well adolescents, also chowing down in one field, and 3 more moose in another?
What an amazing morning! I want to just pull over and stare at them they are such amazing creatures!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

My Doll

Makin' Babies

'Member back in High School when the Sex Ed lady would come in and give her baby making lecture?
Remember the "it only takes once" chat?

Why don't they tell you that that only applies to young, unwed girls who are at the point in their lives where a baby would be the worst thing in the whole wide world?

Why don't they tell you when they are recommending abstinence but advocating birth control that taking birth control can seriously hinder your chances of becoming pregnant later in life? You would think that would help the absitence argument!

Why don't they tell you that it may only take once but that is because you really only get one chance a month and when you are shooting for that chance your body will mess up so you can't actually track that chance?

Why don't they tell you that no matter how much you love kids spending time with people who apperar to be on a mission to repopulate the earth and could do it by looking at each other gets tiring and depressing?

Why don't they tell you that whether or not you have told people you are indeed trying to have a baby they will continue to ask things like "why haven't you gotten pregnant yet?" or "when are you going to have a baby?" or "aren't you trying to have kids?" and that while these things may be said in jest from them they are hurtful and frustrating when you actually are trying?

Why don't they ever tell you that while in high school it may only take once and you may lay awake at night fearing you have done something horrible, when you are older, and it doesn't take that one time you will still lay awake wondering if you have done something horrible?

Why does it feel like you will be young forever until you start trying to have a baby?

Why don't they tell you that although the practice may be fun, it sure would be nice to acheive your goal, so it could just go back to being practice!

Friday, February 17, 2006


I did miss some!

  • We went to MEXICO!!!

How could I have possibly missed Mexico???

What a Difference 6 Months Makes

Last night I started to think back over the last 6 months, and I can not believe everything that has happened.

In 6 Months:
  • Our Truck was totalled
  • Al got a new job
  • I got a new job
  • We got a new car
  • C&S Moved
  • We got a new Kitty
  • C&S got a new car
  • We got a new Puppy
  • M&C Had another Baby
  • Lil man turned 2
  • We celebrated: Our 1st Anniversary; Thanksgiving; Christmas; NewYears; and Valentines day.
  • We've been to Edmonton 3 times
  • We've been to PG at least twice

I'm sure I'm missing things. If I think back over the year its even crazier. In about a month it will have been a year since Cc&S have been to our house, and in that time we have completely redone at least 3 rooms and added two pets! Wild.

One Toe In

Well, I guess its more than a toe, I have broken down, I have created a blog.
Look what you've done, all you bloggerites. You have sucked me in.... No turning back now.